Nothing like waking up in the morning to....

The realization that your bank account is nearly zero. I live a fairly frugal life. I don't spend a lot of money on extras. Yes I do imbibe in an occasional slurpee and for my health I should probably stop doing that.. but it's sooo frustrating to be living from check to check. My boss currently owes me a substantial amount of money. I have no idea when I'll be receiving any of it. In fact, he owes me money going back to May - money that he claims has already been paid to me but he won't go back and trace it to see if it's cleared his account or cut me a new check since it hasn't. We're somewhere around $1400. That would finance me for the next few weeks and finance my move out to Arizona with some left over. Jamie owes me a substantial amount of money. I'll be surprised if I ever see a dime of that and I'm likely to end up paying more money in that respect because he won't pay the boys' medical bills. It's sooooo frustrating. Why can't people do what they're supposed to do. I'd love to be able to pay all of my bills on time, in full. The only things I'm "current" on are my cell phone and my electric, and I guess my rent. Although I just paid it - for last month. So I guess I'm behind again as of today because I don't have it to pay today and won't for probably a week. I have $132 to last me a week or until I get more money from somewhere. I've got stuff for sale on craigslist.

I really wanted to take the boys somewhere on Friday and I don't think that I can afford to do that. I wanted to take them to Aquatica or something. Even with our passes it would cost ~$40 for us to go for the day - this is assuming that I don't need to buy gas which I probably will. I've got to figure something else out. I'm very angry about my financial state and feel very much the victim. Back in the day when I made a lot of money I didn't think anything of it.. just spent it without really worrying about the bank balance or how much was where because I knew it would always have something in it.  Over the last year especially, since being out of school, I've struggled and struggled.  Maybe it's karmic payback for being wasteful. I suppose I'm still being wasteful by spending on frivolous things like slurpees and the occasional trip to the movies.

The thought occurred to me today that the magistrate would let us leave, but I wouldn't be able to because we don't have enough money to go. This would be more than frustrating. Something has to give. I have medicine that I need to pick up, that I can't afford to go get. That really REALLY upsets me.
I need to go do something else rather than sit here and think about this. There has to be a better way....